lovelustfear is a podcast series that exposes the darker side of dating and relationships. Host Jake Deptula (Strictly Stalking) welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. Every episode explores true dating and relationship stories—from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. lovelustfear is a compelling, terrifying, but always insightful exploration into toxic dating and relationships that will have you abandoning courtesy and listening with caution. If you would like to share your story on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us at lovelustfearpod@gmail.com video episode teasers | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912-lovelustfear Sun, 29 Sep 2024 07:00:00 +0000 en https://audioboom.com/i/41377462/s=1400x1400/el=1/rt=fill.jpg https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912-lovelustfear true lovelustfear is a podcast series that exposes the darker side of dating and relationships. Host Jake Deptula (Strictly Stalking) welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. Every episode explores true dating and relationship stories—from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. lovelustfear is a compelling, terrifying, but always insightful exploration into toxic dating and relationships that will have you abandoning courtesy and listening with caution. If you would like to share your story on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us at lovelustfearpod@gmail.com video episode teasers | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfear lovelustfearpod@gmail.com 1e7ff547-58df-5a37-a21c-186b5f5742d6 ©lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss episodic https://audioboom.com/posts/8579057 63 false trailer This October, lovelustfear returns along with brand new episodes of lovelustfridays!
We'll dive deep into compelling topics like cheating, catfishing, love bombing 101 stalking, and the FBI's approach to battling romance scams. I'll be speaking with new guests and guest speakers, including therapists, dating coaches, law enforcement professionals, private investigators, legal experts, celebrities, authors, and influencers. 
Additionally, I'm excited to announce I'll be participating in a True Crime Podcasting Ethics course with Terra Newell. You can find more information on her Instagram here:
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]]> This October, lovelustfear returns along with brand new episodes of lovelustfridays! Sun, 29 Sep 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-09-29:/posts/8579057 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8577403 1883 false bonus Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Lorraine, a narcissistic abuse survivor from episode fifteen of lovelustfear, "You Have To Be Very Careful With Him.”

They delve into Lorraine's experience of escaping an abusive relationship with a partner diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder and her legal challenges co-parenting with him. They also examine the significant struggles she faced within the police and court systems, which may have displayed bias and racism, particularly in Family Court. Also, they discuss how the judicial system focuses on child protection and how it sometimes fails to consider the best interests of the abuse victim, emphasizing the urgent need for reform in family courts to provide better support for victims.

topics | toxic relationship, unfair treatment, police, court system, bias, racism, co-parenting, narcissistic ex-partner, self-care, narcissism, white privilege, family court, psychological evaluation, coercive control, court reform, self-discovery, support networks, humor

Lorraine - Episode Link
"You Have To Be Very Careful With Him.”
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-lorraine-you-have-to-be-very-careful-with-him/id1735876283?i=1000664798749&itscg=30200&itsct=podcast_box&ls=1&mttnsubad=1000664798749
https://open.spotify.com/episode/54b3WJWHzDo324QLD2VU1o?si=P9hTAjHKTjW4HV73DUFYsw

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https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/

Lorraine
Go Fund Me Page: https://gofund.me/5bd8a430
Narcissism The Comedy Night: 
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Energy Healing Specialist: Regulating the Nervous System and Relieving Emotional and Mental Pain Through Breathwork
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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
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]]> Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Lorraine, a narcissistic abuse survivor from episode fifteen of lovelustfear, "You Have To Be Very Careful With Him.” They delve into Lorraine's experience of escaping an abusive relationship with a partner diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder and her legal challenges co-parenting with him. They also examine the significant struggles she faced within the police and court systems, which may have displayed bias and racism, particularly in Family Court. Also, they discuss how the judicial system focuses on child protection and how it sometimes fails to consider the best interests of the abuse victim, emphasizing the urgent need for reform in family courts to provide better support for victims. Thu, 26 Sep 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-09-26:/posts/8577403 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8575208 2317 true bonus Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Lena, an abusive marriage survivor from episode nine of lovelustfear, “He’s Your Problem Now.”

They discuss Lena's toxic marriage and the influence of cultural obligations in her Armenian community, the nuances of recognizing abuse, and how she found her voice and empowerment through her second husband's supportive and matrilineal Native American culture. The conversation also highlights the themes of coercive control, gaslighting, financial manipulation, and the emotional toll these experiences have on physical health, including the long-term effects of trauma. Also, they discuss the importance of support systems and reflect on the necessity of self-care in the healing process.

topics | cultural obligations, empowerment, trauma recovery, self-care, mental health, women's rights, love, relationships, trauma, abuse, relationships, cultural expectations, toxic traits, vulnerability, healing, hashimoto's disease, independence, personal growth, podcasting, toxic relationships

Lena - Episode Link
"He’s Your Problem Now"
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-lena-hes-your-problem-now/id1735876283?i=1000657913302
https://open.spotify.com/episode/3VuTd9CszCR6CyVMNmddRW?si=zHN5QTHhRXGe-VK61UY9jg

links

Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/
The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk M.D. (Author) (Book Recommended By Michele)
https://www.amazon.com/Body-Keeps-Score-Healing-Trauma/dp/0143127748
More About Hashimoto's Disease
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/hashimotos-disease/symptoms-causes/syc-20351855
Music Playing During Lena’s Freedom Ride, aka “The Grapevine”
Siouxsie and the Banshees (Spotify Playlist)
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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
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]]> Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Lena, an abusive marriage survivor from episode nine of lovelustfear, “He’s Your Problem Now.” They discuss Lena's toxic marriage and the influence of cultural obligations in her Armenian community, the nuances of recognizing abuse, and how she found her voice and empowerment through her second husband's supportive and matrilineal Native American culture. The conversation also highlights the themes of coercive control, gaslighting, financial manipulation, and the emotional toll these experiences have on physical health, including the long-term effects of trauma. Also, they discuss the importance of support systems and reflect on the necessity of self-care in the healing process. Sun, 22 Sep 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-09-22:/posts/8575208 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8571474 2427 true bonus Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Mira, a survivor and parent, from episode five of lovelustfear, “A F**king Broken Mess.”

They discuss the challenges of co-parenting with a narcissistic ex-partner, the complications substance abuse brings to custody battles, and how custody laws can prioritize parental rights over child welfare. The discussion also touches on why therapists might be reluctant to testify in custody cases. Strategies for handling high-conflict situations include documenting interactions, careful planning, and setting boundaries. Additionally, they examine the appeal of toxic relationship patterns and the warning signs to watch for. 

topics | custody, co-parenting, substance abuse, family law, child welfare, parental rights, therapy, legal advice, family dynamics, psychology, custody battles, personality disorders, toxic relationships, red flags, mental health, empathy, codependency, legal representation, domestic violence 

Mira - Episode Link
"A F**king Broken Mess"
https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear-mira-a-f-king-broken-mess/id1735876283?i=1000654910765
https://open.spotify.com/episode/1grB6rj9w4wYwYefeEXQIG

links

Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/

Narcissistic Trauma Healing (Recommended By Mira)
https://carolinestrawson.com/

Caroline Strawson is a multi-award winning Qualified & Accredited Trauma Therapist & Coach, Founder of The School of Trauma Informed Positive Psychology - a school with a mission to create a wave of change around trauma healing and education both personally and professionally.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
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]]> Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Mira, a survivor and parent, from episode five of lovelustfear, “A F**king Broken Mess.” They discuss the challenges of co-parenting with a narcissistic ex-partner, the complications substance abuse brings to custody battles, and how custody laws can prioritize parental rights over child welfare. The discussion also touches on why therapists might be reluctant to testify in custody cases. Strategies for handling high-conflict situations include documenting interactions, careful planning, and setting boundaries. Additionally, they examine the appeal of toxic relationship patterns and the warning signs to watch for. Mon, 16 Sep 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-09-16:/posts/8571474 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8567309 1781 true bonus Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Kaitlyn, a domestic abuse survivor, from episode ten of lovelustfear, “We Didn’t Have Boundaries.” They discuss how trauma can disrupt memory, making it difficult for survivors to recall details and affecting their ability to seek justice effectively. They also explore how growing up in toxic environments can impair one's ability to trust gut feelings and make sound choices. The conversation also addresses the unique challenges faced by romantic partners of abuse survivors, highlighting the importance of empathy, patience, and open communication. 

topics | toxic relationships, domestic violence, trauma, legal system, healing, support, trauma, relationships, recalibrating instincts, toxic environments, trust, picker, broken picker, compassion, understanding, abuse, validation, court system, support, partners of trauma survivors, understanding, compassion, communication, safe space, education, forgiveness, triggers, boundaries, domestic violence

Kaitlyn - Episode Link
"We Didn’t Have Boundaries"
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-kaitlyn-we-didnt-have-boundaries/id1735876283?i=1000658756399
https://open.spotify.com/episode/3vQ4DO13Irvg50QWX74aZK?si=J0qsPr9aRhu1awFqQj6yfw

links

Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
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]]> Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Kaitlyn, a domestic abuse survivor, from episode ten of lovelustfear, “We Didn’t Have Boundaries.” They discuss how trauma can disrupt memory, making it difficult for survivors to recall details and affecting their ability to seek justice effectively. They also explore how growing up in toxic environments can impair one's ability to trust gut feelings and make sound choices. The conversation also addresses the unique challenges faced by romantic partners of abuse survivors, highlighting the importance of empathy, patience, and open communication. Sat, 07 Sep 2024 06:56:23 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-09-07:/posts/8567309 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8563586 1885 true bonus Host Jake Deptula and Family Law Attorney Michele Locke sit down with Justine, a former military wife and domestic abuse survivor, from episode three of lovelustfear, "You're Never Allowed to Leave Me." They discuss the challenges military spouses face in abusive relationships, the complexities of navigating the court system, and the biases that can impact legal outcomes. They also explore the journey of finding love and healing after trauma, the power dynamics within abusive relationships, and the vital importance of sharing survivor stories.

Topics: abusive relationships, power dynamics, military spouses, survivor stories, healing, love, toxic relationship, military, support, court system, biases, listening, comfortable environments, survivors, domestic violence

Justine - Episode Link
"You’re Never Allowed To Leave Me"
https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear-justine-youre-never-allowed-to-leave-me/id1735876283?i=1000653439092
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5bNWUWoj1deSI8kcANsGpo?si=7945e7c09356460e

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Michele Locke
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https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/
Military Spouse Support 
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Talk: 1.800.342.9647
Military OneSource is your 24/7 connection to information, answers, and support to help you reach your goals, overcome challenges, and thrive. As a member of our military family, you are eligible to use this Defense Department-funded program anytime, anywhere. Turn to Military OneSource for tax services, spouse employment help, webinars and online training, relocation, and deployment tools, and much more.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

Justine - Episode Link
"You’re Never Allowed To Leave Me"
https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283
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]]> Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Justine, a former military wife and domestic abuse survivor, from episode three of lovelustfear, "You’re Never Allowed to Leave Me." They discuss the challenges military spouses face in abusive relationships, the complexities of navigating the court system, and the biases that can impact legal outcomes. They also explore the journey of finding love and healing after trauma, the power dynamics within abusive relationships, and the vital importance of sharing survivor stories. Fri, 30 Aug 2024 09:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-08-30:/posts/8563586 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8555755 2887 true bonus Introducing – Haunted Detective

A true crime podcast that investigates the Macabre side of the world. Kelsey Childs and her friend Pamela J explore Paranormal mysteries nestled within the strangest crime cases you will ever hear about. From human doll makers and odd hauntings to people who vanished without a trace, the Haunted Detective podcast is a series that will make you question everything.

The Murder of Pravin Varughese: Police Negligence & Racial Discrimination

Kelsey and Pamela are going to be deep diving into the murder of Pravin Varughese; a case that has involved horrific displays of racial prejudice, police negligence and just overall bizarre court rulings. 

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]]> A true crime podcast that investigates the Macabre side of the world. Kelsey Childs and her friend Pamela J explore Paranormal mysteries nestled within the strangest crime cases you will ever hear about. From human doll makers and odd hauntings to people who vanished without a trace, the Haunted Detective podcast is a series that will make you question everything. Mon, 26 Aug 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-08-14:/posts/8555755 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8554726 1683 true bonus Introducing: Sins & Survivors: Las Vegas True Crime – What if the system you trust to protect you fails miserably? We're diving into a narrative that paints this grim picture in the tale of Phoukeo Dej-Oudom and her children. Tragically, their plea for protection fell on deaf ears, and the consequences were fatal. They were robbed of their dreams and their lives in the city that markets itself as the city of second chances - Las Vegas. This heart-wrenching episode of Sins & Survivors brings to light the intersection of domestic violence and gun violence. The haunting echo of Phoukeo’s story is resounding in our current legal landscape, with a Supreme Court case considering the constitutionality of gun removal in the cases of protective orders being argued in November 2023. It’s a complex matter, and we’re taking a hard look at the way victim blaming permeates these narratives. Join us as Shaun and John confront the unrealistic expectations of easy answers.

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]]> What if the system you trust to protect you fails miserably? We're diving into a narrative that paints this grim picture in the tale of Phoukeo Dej-Oudom and her children. Tragically, their plea for protection fell on deaf ears, and the consequences were fatal. They were robbed of their dreams and their lives in the city that markets itself as the city of second chances - Las Vegas. This heart-wrenching episode of Sins & Survivors brings to light the intersection of domestic violence and gun violence. Mon, 12 Aug 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-08-12:/posts/8554726 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8553636 15 lovelustfear | lorraine | you have to be very careful with him 3091 true full After her divorce, Lorraine sought advice from a shaman, who encouraged her to let others take the lead. She started taking dance classes and began dating her partner, who eventually revealed himself to be a manipulative and controlling narcissist, drawing her into a cycle of escalating abuse.

**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, racism, and mental, emotional, and physical abuse. Listener discretion is advised.**

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:58) about lorraine
(02:51) lorraine’s story
(47:10) questions & answers
(49:34) closing thoughts
(50:37) charity & organizations
(51:07) submit your story
(51:17) disclaimer

quotes

“I decided to take therapy sessions from a shaman. And she said to Lorraine, you have problems being led.” - Lorraine
“I always already checking off all the boxes of how could I be the helper in this the Savior in this relationship?” - Lorraine
“...she said, it took me eight years to get my life back together after what he did to me. And she said, This man will break you down until you are absolutely nothing.” - Lorraine
“I would often lock myself in rooms to get away from him because sometimes things became violent…” - Lorraine
“...the Police officer flips open his gun, puts his hand on his gun and says to me, are you resisting arrest? And that's when it hit me. I'm like, Oh my God. I am a black English speaking woman in a French speaking province. I am fucked.” - Lorraine
“We keep our head up and we walk strong and we believe in God. And we believe in higher power, and we believe in kindness, and that's what's kept me through.” - Lorraine

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 & 003 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Samuel Kamau, Cybercutie, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay

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]]> After her divorce, Lorraine sought advice from a shaman, who encouraged her to let others take the lead. She started taking dance classes and began dating her partner, who eventually revealed himself to be a manipulative and controlling narcissist, drawing her into a cycle of escalating abuse. Fri, 09 Aug 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-08-09:/posts/8553636 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8549204 646 false bonus Introducing: Women and Crime — Two Criminologists cover a new female-focused case each episode. You’ll hear the stories of these women, paired with the science that tells you where it all went wrong. We’ll explore the causes of female crime, victimology, the legal system, as well as celebrate heroines who have left their mark on the criminal justice system. Dr Meghan Sacks and Dr Amy Shlosberg are both Professors of Criminology at Fairleigh Dickinson University. Both have years of first-hand experience working with offenders and professionals in the criminal justice system. They teach classes covering topics such as: Women & Crime, Race & Crime, Criminology, and Serial Killers.

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]]> Introducing: Women and Crime — Two Criminologists cover a new female-focused case each episode. You’ll hear the stories of these women, paired with the science that tells you where it all went wrong. Wed, 31 Jul 2024 00:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-07-30:/posts/8549204 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8546036 14 lovelustfear | terra | i want you to always be available to me 2317 true full At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship.
**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, murder, suicide, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and drug use. Listener discretion is advised.**

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“…but then he smoothed things over. He was just so good at explaining everything so good at covering everything up.” - Terra
“With him coming into my life with him even bringing the drugs and creating that addiction, it created an addiction in the relationship with him.” - Terra
“It made me feel like I had to have my phone on me all the time. I need to answer him right away. I need to, be there for him. And, if I didn't answer that message, then I got punished.” - Terra
“I say before you even think about making that comment of ‘she should have left’ or ‘she chose this’ is go and do the research of how hard it is to leave. Go and do the research of what your brain actually looks like when you're in this toxic relationship.” - Terra

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]]> At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship. Wed, 24 Jul 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-07-24:/posts/8546036 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8542107 55 false trailer lovelustfear is being developed as a streaming TV series! (Listen for more details.)

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Thank you so much! ]]> lovelustfear is being developed as a streaming TV series! Tue, 16 Jul 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-07-16:/posts/8542107 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8538842 13 lovelustfear | emma | you should be scared 2071 false full Emma seeks comfort in the arms of a former client whose initial charm and good looks give way to his darker traits, trapping her in escalating emotional turmoil and abuse.
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“All in the same week, I lost a dog, a job, a relationship, and a house. It was just like one of those things where your world is completely turned upside down and you're very vulnerable, right?” - Emma
“I run into Ben again, and Ben is somebody that women do see and say, wow, that guy's very attractive. And, we exchanged numbers and decided to go out for drinks one night… within a couple weeks, he had said, I want you to be my girlfriend.” - Emma
“He'd always kind of put on this good face for other people and then if there was any sort of stress or something that he perceived as a stress it would set him off.” - Emma
“My sense of safety around him, I think I was always aware that the day could be a bad day or like, I hope he's not in a bad mood and anything could really put him in a bad mood.” - Emma
“And I said something like, you're really scaring me, and all of a sudden he goes looks at me and he goes ‘you should be scared’ and he puts his foot on the gas like all the way, you know, ninety miles an hour swerving, screeching, whipping around and I'm just absolutely freaking out.” - Emma
“I didn't want to give him the power to ruin romantic love for me or the idea of a relationship for me, I wasn't going to do that.” - Emma
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]]> Emma seeks comfort in the arms of a former client whose initial charm and good looks give way to his darker traits, trapping her in escalating emotional turmoil and abuse. Wed, 10 Jul 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-07-10:/posts/8538842 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8534076 3354 false bonus The podcast that goes ‘undercover’ to help women understand the seedy tactics of love criminals so you can live happily ever after, Psychopath Free! If you love stories about romance scams, catfishing, cheaters exposed, gaslighting, and people who live double lives, this podcast is right up your alley – where the line between true crime and matters of the heart blurs. Ex-Wives Undercover shares chilling tales of survivors who conquered the ultimate crime of toxic love. Learn to spot the red flags, protect yourself, and find solace in the stories of those who've walked away from the brink. Subscribe now to join our community and become an undercover detective in pursuit of healing and justice. Every Tuesday, the investigation continues.

EX-WIVES UNDERCOVER: LIARS, CHEATERS, AND LOVE CONS
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]]> The podcast that goes ‘undercover’ to help women understand the seedy tactics of love criminals so you can live happily ever after, Psychopath Free! If you love stories about romance scams, catfishing, cheaters exposed, gaslighting, and people who live double lives, this podcast is right up your alley – where the line between true crime and matters of the heart blurs. Wed, 03 Jul 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-07-03:/posts/8534076 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8529997 12 lovelustfear | debra | i’ve always seemed to attract the crazy type 2200 false full After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control.

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“...but the end of that marriage is where I learned to equate chemicals with avoiding pain…alcohol became a problem pretty quickly for me.” - Debra

“I just like continued to choose worse and worse partners along the way because I lost my self-respect.” - Debra

“So, within record time, I'm like fired from my great job, already have given up the house that I had just re established. And so, at this point, I'm pretty realizing that I'm dependent on him.” - Debra

“Anything I told him, any vulnerability I shared with him would become his weapon the next time. It would be whatever he would control me with or, something to make me feel bad about.” - Debra

“And the closure will come when you finally see you are enough. Nobody else is going to make you more, you are fine as you are. and it's not something that you can just read a self-help book and get there, but you know, there's people that can help. Help you to see it.” - Debra

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National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism
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]]> After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control. Wed, 26 Jun 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-26:/posts/8529997 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8529431 146 false trailer Ashley and Ricky, the dynamic duo behind Crime Salad, bring their unique perspectives and captivating storytelling to unravel some of the most intriguing criminal cases. With each episode, they dive deep into the details, providing listeners with a thought-provoking exploration of the darker side of humanity. Join them every week as they serve up a chilling dish of true crime that will leave you craving for more.

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]]> Ashley and Ricky, the dynamic duo behind Crime Salad, bring their unique perspectives and captivating storytelling to unravel some of the most intriguing criminal cases. With each episode, they dive deep into the details, providing listeners with a thought-provoking exploration of the darker side of humanity. Join them every week as they serve up a chilling dish of true crime that will leave you craving for more. Tue, 25 Jun 2024 08:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-25:/posts/8529431 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8527220 51 false trailer Thank you all for listening and subscribing to lovelustfear. I'm so grateful to all the brave guests who have joined the show and shared their important stories with us. 

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Thank you so much! ]]> lovelustfear | special announcements | june 2024 Thu, 20 Jun 2024 07:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-20:/posts/8527220 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8526209 11 lovelustfear | kenzi | i think we met awkward twelve minutes ago 1873 true full Following her divorce, Kenzi returned to her hometown and ventured into online dating, where she developed a promising friendship with romantic potential. However, the situation took a dark turn when Kenzi found herself subjected to his disturbing and abusive behavior.

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“I started to really realize like, okay, I'm going to have to leave this marriage because if I don't leave this marriage at some point, I'm not so sure I'm going to make it out at all.” - Kenzi

“I have got to rebuild my life. And I finally get to this point where I want to start the process of exploring dating.” - Kenzi

“And he just looks me dead in the face. And he says, If you're not going or staying the night, I might as well just go ahead and get this over with.” - Kenzi

“I'm just like, God, please let me get my shoes on and get the fuck out of here, like, please, just let me get the fuck out of here safe, like, please don't let anything happen to me.” - Kenzi

“And what I would tell them is that you have no idea what somebody is going through until you are standing right in their shoes and you're put into the exact same situation. You don't know how you would react. You don't know how you would act. You don't know what you would say.” - Kenzi

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Inside The Case | Podcast
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Instagram | Kenzi Durbin
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Spacetime by Mountaineer

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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
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]]> Following her divorce, Kenzi returned to her hometown and ventured into online dating, where she developed a promising friendship with romantic potential. However, the situation took a dark turn when Kenzi found herself subjected to his disturbing and abusive behavior. Wed, 19 Jun 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-19:/posts/8526209 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8525618 119 false trailer Affairs are prevalent but rarely talked about relationships. The podcast, Cheating: When Love Lies, is a deep dive into the complex emotions surrounding these secret unions.

Creator and host, Jillian Hamilton, delves into this taboo topic and asks the hard questions about affairs: how common are they, who's having them, and why? These questions illicit unexpected answers that reveal both men and women as people actively seeking something - validation, escape, understanding, vengeance, thrill, love, sex, and romance - outside of marriage or committed partnerships. Cheating: When Love Lies resists the condemnation of affairs as uniquely wrong or bad and instead considers their usefulness in learning as much about relationships as we learn about our ourselves.

On the podcast, Jillian Hamilton narrates short fictional stories about cheating based on true life events. The narration is followed by a roundtable discussion with everyday people who share their unique perspectives. Jillian also interviews cheaters and betrayed partners. These interviews are raw and real-and at times maddening or heartbreaking.

Listen now to Cheating: When Love Lies. Are you ready for the truth?

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]]> Affairs are prevalent but rarely talked about relationships. The podcast, Cheating: When Love Lies, is a deep dive into the complex emotions surrounding these secret unions. Tue, 18 Jun 2024 08:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-18:/posts/8525618 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8522135 10 lovelustfear | kaitlyn | we didn’t have boundaries 1513 true full Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence.

chapters

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(01:21) about kaitlyn
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(19:02) questions & answers
(23:30) closing thoughts
(24:18) charity & organizations
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(24:59) disclaimer

quotes

“I thought that it was going to be, like, a romance novel because he painted that picture for me.” - Kaitlyn
“We didn't have boundaries. those, between him and I, those didn't exist.” - Kaitlyn
“He would wake up and decide that he wanted to be mad at me for something that he dreamt about, and he would take it out on me.” - Kaitlyn
“I had to get stripped of everything that I'd ever known. So those basic emotions that we get when we're children. I got stripped down to those emotions. in therapy, it was like, you think you understand guilt but you need to learn just happiness.” - Kaitlyn

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Spacetime by Mountaineer

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Cleveland Rape Crisis Center
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Cleveland Rape Crisis Center supports survivors of rape and sexual abuse, promotes healing and prevention and advocates for social change.

Futures Without Violence
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For more than 30 years, FUTURES has been providing groundbreaking programs, policies, and campaigns that empower individuals and organizations working to end violence against women and children around the world.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
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]]> Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence. Wed, 12 Jun 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-12:/posts/8522135 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8521371 3220 false bonus L.A. Not So Confidential is a True Crime and Forensic Psychology podcast hosted by two Los Angeles - based psychologists currently working in the criminal justice field. Dr. Shiloh & Dr. Scott have a unique perspective on True Crime as residents of the center of the entertainment world and the birthplace of the Noir Crime Genre.

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]]> L.A. Not So Confidential is a True Crime and Forensic Psychology podcast hosted by two Los Angeles - based psychologists currently working in the criminal justice field. Dr. Shiloh & Dr. Scott have a unique perspective on True Crime as residents of the center of the entertainment world and the birthplace of the Noir Crime Genre. Mon, 10 Jun 2024 23:10:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-10:/posts/8521371 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8518635 9 lovelustfear | lena | he’s your problem now 2384 false full Lena, compelled by her strict upbringing, marries a culturally appropriate man who promises to provide for her needs. But after discovering his success and adoration are a facade, she finds herself trapped in a marriage of deception, control, and abuse.

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(01:46) about lena
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(33:10) questions & answers
(37:59) closing thoughts
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“I came from a traditional Armenian family. my cultural heritage is from Turkey. my grandparents were both survivors of the Armenian genocide. my parents were first generation, I'm second. And I was raised in a very strict household.” - Lena

“My father would say conflicting statements like you can do anything you want to do in life as long as you put your mind to it. Whereas my mother on the other side would say a girl's place is in the home taking care of her family.” - Lena

“He took me to the most extravagant Restaurant. he was dressed to the nines, and he got me flowers and gifts, and you're beautiful. You're perfect. I've never imagined myself with anybody so wonderful as you and I think that we could build a future together.” - Lena

“It progressively got worse and worse and worse. he started to degrade me, and he got very controlling. He told me what I could wear, how I could wear it. how to wear my makeup, how to wear my hair, And he told me what type of underwear to wear, and if I didn't do it, then there was going to be some form of emotional punishment.” - Lena

“And she said, ‘You've got 30 minutes to get your cats in their carriers, get your purse on your back, and get out of the house or I'm going to call the police.’” - Lena

“...if you're in a situation where you're dealing with a narcissist and you're married to that, start planning, look for a way out. stash money away, get your jewelry, and hide it. And when the time is right, it's going to present itself and you get the hell out when you know you're supposed to leave and don't look back.” - Lena

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The Midnight Mission - TMM (Downtown Los Angeles, CA)
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Phone: 1.213.624.9258
The Midnight Mission is the oldest continuously operating human service organization in the Los Angeles region. Centered in the Skid Row area of downtown Los Angeles, The Midnight runs one of the most efficient direct service operations in the country. With only five executive managers throughout its 100-year history, The Midnight has been a consistent beacon of light for those with nowhere else to turn.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
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]]> Lena, compelled by her strict upbringing, marries a culturally appropriate man who promises to provide for her needs. But after discovering his success and adoration are a facade, she finds herself trapped in a marriage of deception, control, and abuse. Wed, 05 Jun 2024 10:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-05:/posts/8518635 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8517955 63 false trailer Hosts Natalie and Paige use straightforward storytelling to spotlight cold cases, missing persons, and suspicious deaths— often incorporating original audio from the victim’s friends and family. The podcast also includes monthly interviews about the true crime genre as a whole, whether that’s discussions on ethics, survivors sharing their stories, or other relevant topics.

Connect with them at themurderdiariespodcast.com or on socials @themurderdiariespod

Listen on Spotify
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Listen on Apple
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]]> Hosts Natalie and Paige use straightforward storytelling to spotlight cold cases, missing persons, and suspicious deaths— often incorporating original audio from the victim’s friends and family. The podcast also includes monthly interviews about the true crime genre as a whole, whether that’s discussions on ethics, survivors sharing their stories, or other relevant topics. Tue, 04 Jun 2024 05:00:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-06-04:/posts/8517955 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8513430 8 lovelustfear | laura | true love always 1718 true full Laura reconnects with her grade school sweetheart sparking a wave of nostalgic romance. However, the warmth of their reunion soon fades as she becomes subjected to his abusive and destructive behavior.

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(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:46) about laura
(02:46) laura’s story
(23:18) questions & answers
(26:32) closing thoughts
(27:44) charity & organizations
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(28:25) disclaimer

quotes

“We went to fifth-grade camp. we were hanging out all the time, and I kind of got one of my crushes, you know, and I guess he did too, and then we ended up connecting…So we were boyfriend and girlfriend.” - Laura

“We were joking about how we dated when we were younger and we still had the same sort of sense of humor, and the things that made us get along. I felt a special connection to him.” - Laura

“We'd get into arguments and he would. Grab me by my throat and squeeze and choke me and look into my eyes….It was like something else took over him and sometimes I just see him enter a room and he would look like that and I was like, Oh, I better not talk.” - Laura

“And, he was in there with a girl and he looked shocked and she didn't, because she didn't know about me, apparently she's just sitting there. I walked up to him and I was like, Oh, hi. And he looked at me like, Oh, And I said to her, hi, I'm his girlfriend.” - Laura

“I saw more and more examples of healthy relationships like around me and I started recognizing it and being like this is just I can do better than this…” - Laura

“I think that rationalizing is a problem. You can't try to justify other people's behavior. You can't try to rationalize other people's behavior. If you're doing that, there's a problem.” - Laura

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Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Fae Spencer, and Alesiadavina from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness)
https://www.nami.org/
NAMI is the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness. NAMI works to educate, support, advocate, listen and lead to improve the lives of people with mental illness and their loved ones.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
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Thank you for your support!  ]]> Laura reconnects with her grade school sweetheart sparking a wave of nostalgic romance. However, the warmth of their reunion soon fades as she becomes subjected to his abusive and destructive behavior. Thu, 30 May 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-05-30:/posts/8513430 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8509514 7 lovelustfear | sadie | i could kill you right now 1887 true full Sadie finds herself drawn to a drug-addicted "bad boy" with a criminal past. When her efforts to rehabilitate him fail, her addiction to this abusive and dangerous man threatens to end her career, her family, and her life.

chapters

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(01:42) about sadie
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(24:43) questions & answers
(29:30) closing thoughts
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(31:14) disclaimer

quotes

“I was with him for almost fifteen years. And then one day this one thing happened and I felt like something snapped inside of me. Like something died instantly. And I was like, I'm done.” - Sadie

“...he was very honest with me about his drug use and he had a pretty extensive, criminal history. And I felt like, because he was honest with me right away and he asked me to hold my judgment I felt like, I can do that.” - Sadie

“I went all in on this relationship. I thought he has the potential to be something really, really great. Something that I felt like only I could see. And I thought that I could help him get to that point, and other people were like, no, he's dangerous, he's a bad person.” - Sadie

“And then he sent me a text message and it said, you were smart to lock the door.  And I was like,  please just leave, please don't do anything. Will you please just leave? And he said, you let me in the house or I will rip the door off the house. Let me in or I will just tear this door off.” - Sadie

“I've had to, forgive myself, recognize, and this is a huge part of being a therapist too, is recognizing that I am a human, just like everyone else, and that I make mistakes just like everyone else, because people think, ‘Oh, a therapist, like you're supposed to have it all together, You're supposed to know how to do everything.'” - Sadie

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Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Samuel Kamau, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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https://www.cadamn.org/keep-me-safe
Keep Me Safe provides a safe and nurturing place for children to visit their non-custodial parents. We strive to provide a positive, healthy, and nurturing environment where children and their caregivers can be assured that supervised parenting time and exchanges will be conflict-free.

CADA’s (Committee Against Domestic Violence) mission is to provide safety and support to victims of domestic and sexual violence through education advocacy and shelter.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
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]]> Sadie finds herself drawn to a drug-addicted "bad boy" with a criminal past. When her efforts to rehabilitate him fail, her addiction to this abusive and dangerous man threatens to end her career, her family, and her life. Wed, 22 May 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-05-22:/posts/8509514 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8505349 6 lovelustfear | jenna | no one gets out this early 1681 true full Jenna is swept off her feet by a charismatic chef and finds herself married within ninety days. But under his charming facade lurks a volatile temper as Jenna becomes the target of his rage, threats, and physical intimidation.

chapters

listen with caution | 00:00
next on lovelustfear | 00:16
about jenna | 01:20
jenna’s story | 02:12
questions & answers | 21:56
closing thoughts | 25:46
charity & organizations | 27:07
submit your story | 27:36
disclaimer | 27:47

quotes

“And I was instantly taken with this man. he was tall, he was really, swarthy, dashing and would speak to me in Spanglish. And so we ended up making out and hanging out all night.” - Jenna

“I knew this was moving really fast and I wanted it to I think I just felt so ready I want to get married and this guy was just so passionate and all about me.” - Jenna

“...and he was calling me, blowing up my phone saying like, you better come home now or I'll kill myself and you have to deal with the body or I'll kill you if you don't come home.” - Jenna

“And so as I was leaving, this woman pulled me aside…And she's like, Jenna, I read your file and this guy's going to try to kill you.” - Jenna

“...I'm not going to blame myself because I just didn't have all the information. And then once I did get it, I took action. I knew I had to get out.” - Jenna

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Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay

Crazy Love written by Van Morrison
Spacetime by Mountaineer

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Peace Over Violence
https://www.peaceoverviolence.org/
Peace Over Violence is a nonprofit 501c3, multicultural, community based and volunteer centered organization dedicated to building healthy relationships, families and communities free from sexual, domestic and interpersonal violence. To achieve this mission our agency manages five departments delivering the services of Emergency, Intervention, Prevention, Education and Advocacy.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
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]]> Jenna is swept off her feet by a charismatic chef and finds herself married within ninety days. But under his charming facade lurks a volatile temper as Jenna becomes the target of his rage, threats, and physical intimidation. Wed, 15 May 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-05-15:/posts/8505349 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8502012 5 lovelustfear | mira | a f**king broken mess 1638 true full After tying the knot, Mira finds herself fostering an emotionally immature man-child whose public intoxication, abusive tendencies, threats of suicide, and troubling fixation with firearms put Mira and her daughter's lives at risk.

chapters

listen with caution | 00:00
next on lovelustfear | 00:16
about mira | 01:17
mira’s story | 02:05
questions & answers | 21:32
closing thoughts | 25:09
charity & organizations | 26:24
submit your story | 26:54
disclaimer | 27:05

quotes

“I never really learned how to date in a healthy way. in my twenties, I definitely was part of that more of a big, binge-drinking culture where you went out on Friday night and drank a lot. And so then I'd meet men drinking, and then they turned out to, you know, have alcohol problems.” - Mira

“When I started internet dating, I got all those responses, including him. We were first talking, and I took screenshots of those back then because I knew it was not quite right.” - Mira

“It was very eye-opening in a lot of ways because in a sense, it was like adopting him as a teenager, really what it felt like because I had taken on all of these responsibilities.” - Mira

“And I was afraid he was going to commit suicide. I was afraid he was going to kill us. and he was driving by the house and all this shit and so he had no support system. He's never had any friends.” - Mira

“I had to trust my path and I don't do well with that. I like knowing what comes next. So you have to trust that you will be okay and you have to lean on others and come into a space of receiving and acceptance and put that out into the universe.” - Mira
​
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Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Geoffrey Harvey, Samuel Kamau, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, and TheoJT from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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One Mom’s Battle
https://www.onemomsbattle.com/
One Mom’s Battle is the intersection of narcissistic abuse and child custody issues. The mission at One Mom’s Battle is to raise awareness and educate family court professionals on post separation abuse as it relates to co-parenting and the family court system (divorce, paternity and child custody battles). Education on high-conflict individuals and post separation abuse will allow family court professionals (Judges, Commissioners, Magistrates, CPS workers, Guardian ad Litems (GAL), Parenting Coordinators (PC), Custody Evaluators, therapists and attorneys) to recognize the abusive dynamics that play out in the family court system so they can make decisions that are in the best interest of children.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
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]]> After tying the knot, Mira finds herself fostering an emotionally immature man-child whose public intoxication, abusive tendencies, threats of suicide, and troubling fixation with firearms put Mira and her daughter's lives at risk. Wed, 08 May 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-05-08:/posts/8502012 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8498621 4 lovelustfear | gabi | we can't break up 1715 false full Gabi's dating life takes a darker turn when she finds herself entangled in a toxic workplace romance with an abusive partner and is forced to conceal his drug addiction and self-destructive tendencies to protect his career.

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next on lovelustfear | 00:17
about gabi | 01:19
gabi’s story | 02:24
questions & answers | 21:15
closing thoughts | 26:24
charity & organizations | 27:41
submit your story | 28:11
disclaimer | 28:22

quotes

“I was in my early to mid-twenties, really living my best life in West Hollywood. I was really at an exciting point in my career where it felt like anything was possible.” - Gabi

“When I found out that we would be working on a show together, I knew that that was wrong. I was like, I don't want to date someone I work with. That's really problematic.” - Gabi

“…there would always be alcohol. He'd always be drinking when I first went to his place. And I'm like, oh, he must, like, have friends over a lot and he must party a lot.” - Gabi

“He went from being someone who was so supportive of me and encouraging of me and my career to someone who was telling me I wasn't good enough. I wasn't funny enough. I'll never amount to something.” - Gabi

“And he would do things to make that very difficult. Bring different girls every night to the tapings of the show, flaunt that he was dating other people in front of my face. He really went out of his way to make me feel like crap, and to make it really hurt.” - Gabi

“That relationship messed me up. That abusive relationship did not look like what I thought abusive relationships looked like.” - Gabi

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Protects freelance writers and journalists and is backing the SB988 Bill in California, also known as the "freelance isn't free" bill to protect freelancers. 

https://contracosta.news/2024/02/03/senator-wiener-introduces-bill-to-expand-freelance-worker-protections/

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
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]]> Gabi's dating life takes a darker turn when she finds herself entangled in a toxic workplace romance with an abusive partner and is forced to conceal his drug addiction and self-destructive tendencies to protect his career. Wed, 01 May 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-05-01:/posts/8498621 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8495086 3 lovelustfear | justine | you’re never allowed to leave me 2334 true full When 19-year-old Justine fell for a mature and charming military man, she believed she had found her forever. But the husband she once trusted to protect her became the very person she needed protection from. 

chapters

listen with caution | 00:00
next on lovelustfear | 00:16
about justine | 01:19
justine’s story | 02:14
questions & answers | 28:20
closing thoughts | 37:00
charity & organizations | 38:00
submit your story | 38:39
disclaimer | 38:40

quotes

“This guy came to our house. I had seen a photo of him and my dad, in their, army uniforms. So the very first time I ever met him, I thought he was, like, even better looking.” - Justine

“My parents would like very gingerly tell me like, ‘hey, I don't think he's treating you the way you should be treated.’ I just pushed it aside, and thought that, they just didn't know him as well as I did. They're gonna eventually see how wonderful he is.” - Justine

“I would be laying in bed in the middle of the night and be like, I'm gonna be a statistic. I'm gonna wake up one morning and he's just gonna decide that he's done with me living.” - Justine

“…there had just been so many years of hearing how I was, like, the bad one, I was the bad person, um, and so it took me a long time to, like, break myself of that habit of thinking that I was always in the wrong.” - Justine

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Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Jalal Mansour Amine, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Oleksii Holubiev, and Syouki Takahashi from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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YWCA of Greater Harrisburg
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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
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]]> When 19-year-old Justine fell for a mature and charming military man, she believed she had found her forever. But the husband she once trusted to protect her became the very person she needed protection from. Wed, 24 Apr 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-04-24:/posts/8495086 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8491757 2 lovelustfear | desiree | his name was SMITTY 1584 false full In a time before Tinder, Desiree takes the plunge into online dating. She catches the eye of Smitty, a seemingly handsome stranger whose Polaroid profile snapshots obscure his hidden reality.

chapters

listen with caution | 00:00
next on lovelustfear | 00:16
about desiree | 00:58
desiree’s story | 02:19
questions & answers | 15:41
closing thoughts | 24:28
charity & organizations | 25:30
submit your story | 26:00
disclaimer | 26:11

quotes

“So I block him. Even when I would block him, there would be other accounts that I would have to block later. He was all over the place. I mean, I couldn't avoid him.” - Desiree

“So my best friend says, give the guy a chance. I don't necessarily trust her instincts, but this time I'm like, maybe I'm wrong.” - Desiree

“Now, at this point, we've had a date, we haven't talked about a second date, but in his conversation that we're having, he's already talking like we're a couple.  Oh, I can't wait till you see my home. You're just gonna, you're totally gonna love it. You're gonna make it, it needs a woman's touch and I think you're the woman to do it.” - Desiree

“Even if it feels funny, even if you're not sure, even if your friends are going, Oh, why don't you try it? The one thing I've learned in my life is that more times than not, nine times out of ten, when I trust my gut, I'm right every time.” - Desiree

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Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Jan Hill, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Geoff Harvey, Yevhenii Kovalenko, and teddy williams from Pixabay

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Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
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]]> In a time before Tinder, Desiree takes the plunge into online dating. She catches the eye of Smitty, a seemingly handsome stranger whose Polaroid profile snapshots obscure his hidden reality. Wed, 17 Apr 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-04-17:/posts/8491757 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8488419 1 lovelustfear | alona | the only single one left 1590 true full After finding herself the only single one left among her girlfriends, Alona decides to give relationships another try, leading her into one of the most isolating, depressing, and dangerous chapters of her life.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(00:58) about alona
(02:08) alona’s story
(18:04) questions & answers
(24:31) closing thoughts
(25:36) charity & organizations
(26:05) submit your story
(26:16) disclaimer

quotes

“You know, he was charming in the beginning. He really was. All the things he was saying, it was charming. He was moving really fast. I let him in so early because I wanted it so bad.” - Alona

“I’m depressed. I'm lonely and this man is cheating on me. I had no one to talk to because everybody was angry that I wasn't listening to them. I was embarrassed because they, they all warned me and they were right.” - Alona

“I prayed and prayed to get out of this situation, but I didn't know how because he would find me. He knew where my house, you know, if I went back to my house, he knew where I lived. If I go to my mom's house, he knew where she lived.” - Alona

“You can't explain it. All you know is that you were caught in this web and you were lured in and you were like preyed on. One day was too long. Three years was way too long. Don't feel embarrassed. Talk to somebody, get empowered. You're not alone.” - Alona

music | sounds

Music by Leigh Robinson from Pixabay
Music by UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
Sound Effect by AlesiaDavina from Pixabay
Music by Samuel F. Johanns from Pixabay
Music by Jan Hill from Pixabay
Music (CC BY 4.0): Imagefilm 033 and Lost Place Atmospheres 001 by Sascha Ende
"Very Low Note" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 License
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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
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]]> After finding herself the only single one left among her girlfriends, Alona decides to give relationships another try, leading her into one of the most isolating, depressing, and dangerous chapters of her life. Wed, 10 Apr 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-04-10:/posts/8488419 lovelustfear lovelustfear https://audioboom.com/posts/8467423 112 false trailer lovelustfear is a new podcast series exposing the darker side of dating and relationships. Every episode is an exploration into true dating and relationship stories — from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. Host Jake Deptula welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. lovelustfear is a compelling, terrifying, but always insightful exploration into toxic dating and relationships that will have you abandoning courtesy and listening with caution.

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]]> lovelustfear premieres Wednesday, April 10, 2024. Subscribe early on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Amazon Music or wherever you listen to podcasts. Wed, 13 Mar 2024 09:30:00 +0000 tag:audioboom.com,2024-03-02:/posts/8467423 lovelustfear lovelustfear