Hey this is Pastor John Ryan Cantu from PNEUMA Church in Houston, Texas.

Thank you for listening to the message today.

I hope that it blesses you and all those that you share it with God bless you.

This morning I'm gonna ask you to stand and we have uh uh an amazing preacher all the way from el salvador pastor pastor danny gutieres he's gonna bring the you guys are like who are pastor danny God bless you, church.

How we doing?

Enjoying the heat?

It's terrible, isn't it?

I love to grill.

Yesterday my wife forgot to put sunscreen on me.

Alright, it's her job, right?

She needs to take care of the king.

So I'm all burnt and then I have a brother here.

He's sitting in the front.

I don't want to say his name.

As soon as he sees me, he just bah smacked me my shoulder I wanted to smack them.

And spiritually, I smacked him back.

I just didn't.

But I praise God for this opportunity.

Pastor Ryan, thank you for this opportunity.

Uh pastors of this church, of this um English congregation.

I pastored the Spanish.

So if you hear a little Spanish here and there, then it's y'all's fault.

All right.

I know you guys understand.

And I also want to congratulate them for the beautiful gift.

Where's Layla?

I know Layla's.

Layla, I pray I pray for patience.

Because I know you're gonna have to, you know, step in, help mommy and daddy.

Um may you be an amazing big sister number two.

And I know Ellie's in her class, right?

Um, but uh I'm gonna let's open up uh the book of Mark, chapter 5, verses 25 through 34.

It's been a long time since I've preached in English.

A long time.

I'm in my office practicing my English words.

I'm all like ready good looking to you.

How you doing today?

Right.

So if I start flowing, man, forgive me, it's gonna come out in Spanish, but I know the presence of God is is here.

Um I always pray for God to give me his word.

I'm not a psychic.

I don't understand what his people are going through.

I can only perceive what he tells me in the spirit.

And I know we have a generation who has accepted Jesus as their Lord.

But haven't stepped into the full healing process.

We walk with a lot of baggage, a lot of hurt, a lot of uncertainties in life.

And we tend to express our pain in an ugly way.

We still love Jesus.

We still love God.

We're still saved, but we still have a messed up character because of the pain.

It's not because we're ugly, it's just we carry so much pain.

And the only way to express it is hurt people, hurt people And, you know, God is in the process of not just saving you from hell, but also saving you from your own torment.

And many of us walk with that own torment, and we think we're we're okay because we're doing life day by day, and we always say this too shall pass, but not give an opportunity to ourselves to be healed.

And I pray that this word may be a word that we receive in our spirit, but also give God the opportunity to heal our brokenness.

Amen.

The word of God says in Mark five chapter chapter five twenty-five it says and the woman that was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years.

She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and spent all she had.

Yet, instead of getting better, she grew worse.

And when she heard about Jesus, she came behind him in the crowd and touched his clothes, because she thought, if I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.

Immediately the bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from all her sufferings.

At once Jesus realized that the power had gone out of him.

He turned around in the crowd and asked, Who touched my clothes?

You see the people crowding against you, his disciples answered, and yet you ask, Who touched me?

But Jesus kept looking around to see who had done it.

And then the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell at his feet and trembling with fear, told him the whole truth.

Told him the whole truth.

Told him the whole truth.

And he said to her, daughter, your faith has healed you Go in peace.

Be free from all your sufferings.

Let's pray.

Heavenly Father, come before you.

Thank you, God.

We worship you for you are the all Funda Omega, the beginning, the end.

Thank you, Father, for this opportunity.

May it be you flowing, Father God.

May I preach your word as you've given it to me, God.

May every person is gathered here.

Or watching through social media, Father God, receive the word as had you given it to me, God.

That you complete that work, Father God, of healing in our in our walk, Father God, and the pain that we have carried for so long.

May we also forgive those, Father God, that have caused pain.

And we, Father God, ask for forgiveness for those who that we have hurt.

Thank you, Father, for this word.

Thank you.

In the mighty name of Jesus, I pray.

Amen.

Let me take our seats.

Have you ever um been To church, right?

Everybody's here, but uh with a different mentality.

Expecting uh, you know, to to receive something from God But yet always at a standstill to seeing if he's actually going to heal us from the pain that we've carried.

You know what I love about worship is this: that it gives us an opportunity to be healed.

As we glorify God and if we exalt his name, you know it's so beautiful that when his presence descends, we feel a change in the atmosphere, and it's the Holy Spirit.

And we feel this presence of God in this place.

And something inside of us just feels like, oh my God, why are you making me feel the pain that I've carried for so long?

I don't know if it's happened to you, but when I when I'm in worship and I know right I'm worshiping God and I feel his presence.

Out of nowhere, God shines a light on the things that I've been carrying that week that doesn't glorify him And in that moment, I have the opportunity to say, I give it to you, or I'm just, I'm good the way I am.

I'm just good.

I'm figuring that out all by myself.

And I think most of us have come to PNEUMA or go to church because we hear the same report.

Jesus died on the cross for our sins.

Jesus is our our Savior, the healer, right?

But once we get into church, we decide what we actually want to hear.

What Jesus tells in the book of Mark, yeah, book of Mark, he tells the people, be careful how you listen.

Doesn't tell them don't listen to certain things, he says be careful how you listen.

Because perspective matters in life.

With the way we listened, what the we decide to listen to.

So this woman was was in in great need of a healer.

I mean she she went to many physicians, many doctors, and couldn't be healed.

Right?

But she hears this great news that there's this man named Jesus in town.

I mean, he was given free uh healthcare advice, right?

So she walks in and she's like, I want to consult with this physician.

Right, but most of us here sitting here, we've heard many great things, and and the power of being free is how you apply the thing you have listened to.

Well what perspective do you come into the house?

And she's there and she hears this this news about Jesus and she's not the only one there.

As the disciple said, God, Jesus, why you ask this this question?

It's kind of dumb that you ask this question.

Many people are touching you.

So that lets you know, first of all, there were thousands of people surrounding Jesus.

But there was only one person that is mentioned in this dialogue and this story mentioning about her healing.

The story says that she heard the power of hearing, power of knowing what to apply in life.

Most of us listen to a lot of garbage.

Most of us listen to a lot of godly things.

I always say you're a product of your own environment.

You listen to trash, you represent trash.

You listen to godliness, you represent godliness.

We are a product of our own environment.

At this moment, this lady in need.

Can you imagine 12 years of suffering?

It's not even that.

We all suffer.

But I suffer with family.

I suffer with my loved ones.

This lady couldn't be around her loved ones.

The Mosaic law said that she couldn't be around people.

She had to isolate herself.

So can you imagine those nights of torment by herself?

Nights of just questioning why am I here?

How long?

How much more suffering?

As she's pressing through the crowd, let's imagine this.

Thousands of people.

She's not even just taking a step just to feel, you know, just hope.

She's taking each step she takes as a step that she's rejecting shame, discomfort, judginess.

Each step that she's taking, she's not even paying attention to the amount of persecution she could receive because of what she's doing.

She wasn't allowed to be there.

But yet she decide to believe the report of Jesus.

And it's beautiful to know that The most of us still have the same thing.

We have this report of Jesus, and we have conflicted identities.

And Jesus is the only one that can restore the identity.

I've named this title, the sermon Identity Restored.

See, because faith begins with what and how you choose to listen.

And it's beautiful because she said the story says that she thought to herself.

You know, most of us have that power.

All of us have that power.

Not most of us.

We all have that power.

What do you tell yourself?

What are you preaching to yourself?

Every day preaches to us.

Every day preaches to us What do you tell yourself?

Am I good for nothing?

My dad is right.

Yo soy un tonto.

Cabezonte tarudo.

There's a lot of things that have been said to us.

And what has happened is it has damaged our emotional state.

And from emotional state, it has projected to our our identity.

From an emotional state, it has jumped to our identity.

Now we don't say I'm suffering from anxiety.

Now we say I'm anxious.

I don't even say I have moments of depression.

Now I say I'm depressed.

So when people see you, they say, oh, there goes a lady who's always depressed.

Why?

Because that's how you reflect it life Because it's not an emotional state now more, it's your identity.

So she wasn't even just fighting the crowd, she was fighting identity at this moment And as she's walking through the crowd and she's fighting through these thoughts, every step she took, she applied faith.

What you think has the power to set you free.

And most of us, you know, we think so bad of ourselves.

You know, love how King King David so his his his words are so amazing.

He always talked to himself.

It wasn't he probably seemed crazy.

Probably the sheep were looking at him saying, we need to take care of you instead of you taking care of us.

But there's a moment in life when we have to say, Bless the Lord all my soul.

Bless all that is within me.

Can you just a just imagine the torment that she's going through for each step that she's taking?

She's just not fighting the people around her.

It's an internal battle that she has to fight through.

An internal battle of many years of accepting this identity that never belonged to her.

The rejection from her parents, the rejection of her sister, her brother.

I'm sure that it costs so many of you guys to make it to PNEUMA Church.

And it's still costing every day to come over here tormented.

Knowing that Jesus is King, but still tormented.

Knowing that He died on the cross for my sins, but still tormented.

Because words have power.

And if we let the words reside on our hearts, it becomes our identity But I love the fact that she still pushed through faith.

Every step that she took, every thought, was only if I just touched.

His garment.

I will be made whole.

Remember that word ho.

And it's in his original meaning, it's Zozu.

She's, I'm going to be made whole.

She's walking through shame.

She's probably staying to herself, stay away, fighting through it.

No, he's more powerful than my shame.

Still saying, why are you still here?

Keep walking through it and her it's just an internal battle between her and her, and that's how life is.

The Christian walk hasn't even had nothing to do with the devil.

It has something to do with us.

It's the inner man versus the outer man.

It's the godly in me or the carnal in me.

Because you know we hood we like to fight back ten talls on the ground we like to fight But it's the the the the flesh in me just wants to react you know the spirit in me tells me hey don't do that Can I just stab him right quick?

Cut his ear like Peter and you put it back.

But the inner enemy is always trying to fight because it's always about the inner and the outer.

Our conversations that we have with ourselves is between the inner man and the outer man.

It's not about the devil.

It's about the conversation you have with yourself It's always about you versus you.

It's always that.

And this is what she was doing.

It was me versus me.

Am I good enough to touch him?

Am I clean enough to be around these people?

Am I still gonna walk around with the same identity?

But yet she kept moving.

Yet she kept pressing.

And in life, that's what her life is.

You just gotta suck it up, buttercup, and keep moving.

Lace up your boots and put that backpack.

I don't hate I hate that song.

Oh gosh.

I don't want any other I don't hate that song.

I hate that part.

It's so childish.

If you like that song, you're a kid And it's beautiful because she was walking to what she already knew flow from this man named Jesus.

Power, you know what I'm saying?

She already knew.

I choose to believe the news that He is my Savior.

Because that's what that's what it that's the only thing we have when when we have nothing else, when everything is straight from us.

Man, I love it.

I hate it and I love it.

It's a like it's just a Ugly relationship.

It's a love and hate relationship.

And it's like I love that you take everything away, but I hate that I don't have anything because I want to eat I want to eat ribeye and I just can't.

So I seasoned my chicken.

What we're about to be seasoning because it's just it's that type of season that we live in.

You know, God has me just on my knees and just saying, God, just make it rain a cow here and there, like left to right.

Girl, I'm tired of eating chicken.

My kids are tired of eating chicken.

So now a season of a stake.

Right?

But it those moments allow us to get on our knees and seek him And we ask God, God, take it away.

No, no, no, God, don't take it away.

Because if you take it away, then I might just leave you.

This is the battle that she's having, she's facing.

And it's beautiful.

Man, I I you know now that I see the process of how God has taken us as pastors.

Like I said, it's a love-hate relationship with this process, bro.

It sucks.

But I wouldn't trade it.

Because now I don't just have information, I have revelation.

Revelation.

To receive revelation, you have to be exposed to pain.

To hurt.

Discomfort.

To receive more of who he is, his deity, you just have to be willing to be in pain and open up our hearts.

She's there, she touches his garment.

She finally makes it there to the through the crowd.

She touches him and automatically, right?

It's the process of God who he is.

It's instant.

It's an instant transaction.

His blood you're saved.

That's it.

It's an instant transaction.

She touches him.

And he has this Man rhetorical question.

Like you gotta you know everything.

Have you ever asked yourself why like why do you ask when you know?

Like I why you want me to open up when you're you know you when you know you know and it's like Like when you go, this is the reason most people don't want to see a counselor.

Why?

Because it's it exposes you to open up your heart, the pain, the suffering for many years.

And you tell the counselor, no, I'm good, man.

I know you're good.

I know, I know you could just just tell me a little bit more.

So what happens is that we choose to shut up and not even express our pain.

And you know what us Christians, you know what we do nowadays?

Nowadays, when we when it's granted and it gives us the opportunity to open up our hearts, you know what we say?

We get to the moment we glorify your name, we we we honor you, God, you are the most holy God, you are the King of Kings, the Lord of Lord.

The moment sin shines in our life or the pain shining in our life.

You know what's the number one prayer that we always pray is this.

God, no, you're my you know my heart, God.

God, you know my heart.

Amen.

Peace.

Am I lying?

I'm not right.

There's a bunch of hallelujahs in here.

No.

You know why?

Because it's one of the most difficult things we can do as a Christian is open up our heart.

Because we're good with just being saved but still damaging everybody else around us.

And preaching, hey, God loves you.

And why our kids are looking at us like a bunch of hypocrites.

Well, they're going to hell because our actions are speaking more than words.

So what we say is this God loves you, but you eres un tonto.

You know why I had to face it as a dad.

See this is why it's a love-hate relationship.

I tell you, man.

I'm good just offending people.

I hate apologizing to people I'm like God, you already know I'm sorry.

Yeah, but say to him, no.

I can't stand him.

Just the way he chews is nasty.

Just the way he's breached, he's taking all my oxygen.

God, I don't even want to talk to him.

But this is what the Holy Spirit does.

As I grew in my pain, God shined the light in all the ugliness that I've caused around me.

While he was still healing me.

And it's the most oh God, I hate it.

So I had to tell my son.

I had to sit him down And I had to tell a micro I'm sorry.

It's not even that I say I'm sorry because that's just a cop out But I had to be detail the reason I was sorry for.

Because details speak the story It's beautiful because Isaiah opened up the whole scroll on 53 and he says exactly what Jesus is going through because it's in the details.

So when I'm apologizing to my son, the Holy Spirit starts telling me things that I hid.

I, we do a good job hiding things.

I hid.

And I realized what I did as a father was affecting his his manhood or childhood at that time.

Not saying that he didn't deserve some of the stuff because man let me tell you something.

Where he at?

Where he's he's here, where he at taking pictures?

Man, there was one time he tried to buck up on me Whew I look, let me tell you I'm South Central, right?

So look, he did this this parentheses.

I gotta remember where I'm at.

Okay.

So I get a call from the teacher.

He's like, your son not turning in his work.

I said, all right, then I'll speak to my son.

I just get home and I'm like, hey kid, you been doing your work?

Yeah.

I said Oh my god.

I tell you kid, I hate the Bible say don't hate, I don't hate the person, I hate the act.

I hate liars And I can't stand when people lie to me.

Have you been doing your work?

Yeah, yeah.

I said, we're about to fight.

He like he like I've been doing it.

I said, oh right, all right, bro, come on.

So I'm sitting right here.

He's sitting down, then he gets up.

Not just up.

He did this right here.

Oh yeah yeah exactly exactly when he did that I was like finally I get to knock him out finally it's here right so I punched him right in his chest.

My wife is there and she's like, what are you doing?

Get out.

And I'm like, no, no, I gotta teach him.

He's just I didn't even tell him.

I said son, I ain't even mad at you.

I just want to teach you a lesson Alright, out of parentheses.

Alright, I need to focus back on this.

So there were so many things that I did to damage him as a kid.

I had to use that opportunity that the Holy Spirit was granting me.

Listen to this.

He grants us opportunity to fix relationships.

He doesn't sprinkle patience.

He doesn't sprinkle love.

Those who have been born again with Jesus, we already have the fruit of the Spirit.

You don't get sprinkles of his fruit.

No, you get the whole thing.

So he gives you opportunity to demonstrate that you are who you say you are.

So when he was doing that, I like it.

I said, no, I don't want to apologize.

Because if I apologize, I'm just gonna open up a whole textbook of things that I did wrong.

And then I'm gonna be exposed as the bad father that I am.

And I can't do that because I'm a pastor.

Because my title is more important than asking for forgiveness.

But I had to do it because the Holy Spirit shines a light in all your bad habits.

And he did that.

And this is It's what it is, a love-hate relationship.

Because it puts you in a position that you just don't want to do.

And I know most of us are here today that have messed up many relationships because of our stupid attitude.

And we say, it's queer, tú lo sabes que te amo.

You know I love you.

Why do I have to do that?

You already'm here every Sunday.

I'm working in a parking lot sweat like a pig.

I'm out there, man.

You know.

Let my service speak for the forgiveness that I have.

And that's how we treat the relationships.

And then While we see the person, you know, we give them the side eye, not even the brotherly love that Christ demands.

Demands.

Demands.

Okay, demands.

I mean, you know, more other religion religion shows more love than Christians do But Christ demands all of this.

Why?

Because we have to show godliness.

So in this opportunity, God is demonstrating a lot of things that have been messed up in our lives.

So God restores, God delivers, God makes makes hold to her body.

And what I'm trying to get to is this.

She touches the garment.

She becomes She could be comes healed.

Now When you read its original context, she became healed, but she also asked for wholeness In the beginning of the story, she said, if I just touch this garment, I will be made whole.

When she touched the garment, she wasn't made whole.

She was just healed.

It's a big difference And we lose the meat, the saçon de la carne.

We lose it.

That's the reason it's good to man.

Look, look, listen, whoever's studying the word of God, you go to blue letter Bible and it gives you the context.

And it gives you the original meaning of the word.

So in the original meaning of the word, when she was healed, when she when she declared, I want to be healed, she said, I want to be Zozu.

But when she touched this garment, she wasn't Zozu.

She was Ayomiya.

Which is different.

Ayomiah just means physically healed.

It doesn't mean wholeness.

And you know what has happened to this generation?

We're okay with just being made healed but not whole.

We live life we bring become experts in just walking away walking with pain in our heart.

With discomfort We become experts walking carrying everything with a smile and still tormented inside and still living miserable.

And this is the opportunity.

This is so this is the reason I say this is such a an amazing question, but such a rhetorical question, because you know it all.

Why will you ask this dumb question?

Because he asks you guys every Sunday the same question.

So you want to be made whole.

Not just saved.

Because if you want to be made whole, let's have a conversation.

And this is the this is what Jesus does.

I I walk a lot, so it's okay.

Lucy, can I get you Lucy I I do this every Sunday morning so she shouldn't be you she shouldn't nothing should surprise her.

Right.

I'm not Jesus.

I'm just saying we're gonna replay the story.

You're the woman, right?

Get right here.

Just get right here Okay.

So this is what happened.

She was already here.

Jesus.

A son of a living God does this.

Comes down to her level.

Broken by society, by family, walking with a lot of insecurities Breaks down.

The story doesn't say, oh, she just said I touched them.

No, she said I told them the whole story.

What does the whole story mean?

What does the whole story mean?

Does it mean that I yeah God, you know what?

Jesus, now that you open up this thing, I'm gonna take my opportunity to let you know that life sucked for 12 years.

Yeah.

Yeah, life sucked, Jesus.

And if you know it all then you know it.

Jesus was 12 years.

I couldn't be around my family.

Jesus for 12 years I had to isolate myself.

Jesus for 12 years I was walking with this sickness Jesus, for 12 years I did everything right that you've commanded me to do.

And you still allow the sickness to take over my life for 12 years, Jesus.

Jesus, for 12 years I've been walking around without an identity.

I'm not a daughter.

I'm not an aunt.

I'm not a sister.

I have no brother.

All they know me by is the woman with the issue of blood.

Their goal is lying fermata.

Their goal is the one who's sick.

Don't touch her You know what's so beautiful about this scene?

Is that her actions or her beliefs or what society said represented the Mosaic Law?

The Mosaic law said you cannot be near her, but here comes the new covenant.

The new covenant comes into her picture.

Get on her knees.

My knees hurt.

I don't know how you're doing it.

I'm just gonna be like this.

I'm old look I'm forty-two, I can't be doing this.

The new covenant is erasing the old covenant.

Listen to this.

The new covenant is telling the old covenant.

You don't have to work for it.

You don't have to do all these prayers.

You don't have to do all this extra stuff that the old covenant demands.

The new covenant says you have been forgiven.

And because you have been forgiven, I live in you now.

And because I live in you, you are made whole.

You are free from torment.

Can I get Will, the musicians?

Come on, in the healing for your knees.

Anyways going on in this story is is beautiful.

Because Jesus goes in to her level.

Speaks to her.

Not to her condition.

Not to what society named her.

Nowhere in the Bible.

Nowhere in the Bible will you ever see Jesus call someone else daughter.

No worry.

Look it up.

I already did it for you, but go ahead and look it up.

Nowhere in the Bible does Jesus ever refer to another person as daughter.

This is the only story.

Can you imagine what a mistake meant for her at that moment?

Man, I haven't heard the name daughter in so many years.

Haven't been touched in so many years.

You, Jesus Get into my level and you have a conversation with me like I exist, like I'm important.

The old covenant versus the new covenant.

The old covenant says you're not worthy.

The new covenant says my blood is sufficient.

And God restores her identity.

And most of us walk with a confused identity.

We're just doing life.

Still walking with all this pain, but I'm still doing life.

We don't know how to process pain.

We don't know how to ask for forgiveness for the people we've hurt.

She came in broken and left healed.

So when Jesus is having this conversation with her, and he calls her daughter, and he hears everything that she's saying.

He also says, You have been made whole.

So what what she declared in the beginning Was that she wanted to be saved, wanted to be made whole, wanted to receive the ultimate gift that everybody was saying.

She was saved, she was restored, she was delivered.

Not when she touched him, when she spoke to him.

When she touched him, she was only healed When they spoke and he declared, she was saved, restored, delivered, made home.

And this is the problem with the church.

We're only saved.

We're not made whole.

We only know him as our Savior, but not the one who heals me from my torment.

He says, daughter, you've been saved, you've been made whole So when he says you've been made whole, he says you've been made zozu.

Because only he can make you Zozu.

And today, church, you might be walking around with your salvation but still damaging other people around you.

You could be saved.

But still hurting the people around you is not a good life and it's not a good testament.

And it hasn't nothing to do with you.

I don't think anybody here is ugly.

I don't think anybody here has a bad personality or trying to hurt people on purpose.

It's just hurt people. hurt people and sometimes we just don't know how to express the pain.

Sometimes we don't even know how to express it, but let me tell you there's a lot of people who've been walking with a lot of damage.

Because their fathers touched them, their uncles touched them, and they're walking with all these things they don't even trust any other man and then they they they disrupt but explode when it comes to a man or this guy who doesn't know how to treat a mother because all he knows was pain through a mother and he's walking through so much pain but let me tell you Jesus is here to set you free and heal every pain that you've been carrying.

Listen, Jesus is not just a business to save you.

He's here to make you whole.

Mine.

Body, soul, the whole thing walks together.

It doesn't separate.

Nowhere in the gospel do you see somebody else walking with just a mind or just a just divided?

No, it we all walk the same.

Same.

So God says, church, PNEUMA Church.

If you guys want to be a church filled with the Holy Spirit, I need to heal everything inside of you, every pain that you've walked through, every every discomfort that you have, every crisis of identity that you have been conflicted with. with I am here to make you whole because what he needs is a lot of Christ-like Christians to represent the gospel the right way.

He doesn't need any lukewarm Christians.

He needs Christ-like Christians.

And what we need to do is be ready to We expose and open our our hearts.

This generation of Christians.

This new generation of Christians need to learn how to express the pain.

Look, church.

I'm transparent, right?

For most of you guys know that.

For three three years?

Three years.

My wife says three years.

I think it was like two.

I think it was two.

You count really slow.

For two years.

Three.

Okay.

Three.

For three years.

Alright, I'm gonna um I'm gonna say some stuff and have you guys Judgment's fine, I I can take it.

That happened.

Um I left and I started doing coke.

I started that's when I got my tattoos, I got it here, I got my arm.

Um a little longer, maybe a I always tell God God, what didn't you wait?

I would have finished everything.

What okay.

You restored me in your time.

Alright, but okay, great, granted.

So so what happened is I I was I was always getting drunk.

I was always doing stuff and and I would get home in my own little apartment.

I have my little guitar and I have my girls here.

I had alcohol here and I had drugs here and then I will get home and I will be so tormented.

Knowing that he's safe.

For for so long walking with this hole in my heart.

I always tell people do not tackle the symptom, tackle the root.

Symptoms, just a reflection of a bad root.

And for so long, I will get home.

Listen, I will get home drunk.

I would grab my acoustic guitar and start singing.

Worship songs, and for those religious people that then say es que no puedes hacer eso con la gloria de Dios, cállese la boca que sí. a song um man of God but I will just sing a song and I will start crying asking God to heal The hope that I've been carrying for so long.

The symptom wasn't the issue.

It was the root that was always the issue.

Years later, I'm sitting over there.

God uses a preacher, tells me that this was the last opportunity I was gonna get to come back to him.

That moment I turned, came back to Christ.

Was it no No question, didn't flirt with the world, didn't look back.

As soon as I said yes, I said yes.

But I was still walking with this torment, thanking God for what He's done. still walking with this pain.

I remember having a conversation with my wife in the bed.

And I looked at her and I said, baby, have I ever asked for Forgiveness?

This was like maybe two years later.

She looked at me, she said, no, you've never asked for forgiveness.

I just know you're sorry.

And I broke down and I apologized to her.

And why am I apologizing to her?

God is exposing the root of all the pain that I carried for so long.

Listen, I was here preaching, I was here singing Sunday after Sunday, but still walking with this hole in my heart.

That day when I told her everything, it's like God lifted this weight of torment upon my life And most of us are coming Sunday after Sunday with the same issue.

Knowing that he's good, knowing that he saves, knowing that he has set us free, but yet going back home with this torment in our heart because we haven't given God the opportunity.

Needed a healers as we stand to our feet.

It is author causing for everybody, I get it.

This is only for the people who actually want to be safe.

I'm gonna ask for the team to come up I want to say a prayer.

If you're tired of just being sick of tired, this is for you.

For you.

If you're tired of just still hurting people because the hurt you have carried, this is for you.

I want to pray.

Heavenly Father, thank you for this moment.

Thank you for this opportunity, Father God, to preach your word.

Holy Spirit, I ask that you heal the broken heart.

And you show your love, your mercy, Father God, that you are the everlasting key.

That you are the one that takes the pain, Father God, every discoverer that we have, the false identity.

That we have applied upon ourselves, Father God.

We are your child, Father.

We are sons and daughters of the King of King, the Lord of Lords.

There's none like you, Father God.

You are the one who set us. free.

It's by the blood of Jesus that we have everlasting, everlasting life, Father God.

And it is because of the blood, Father God, that we have been set free and the whole Father God, I ask that you take this opportunity, Father God, and Move them in their life, Father God.

Touch their heart, touch their mind, Father God.

Let the Holy Spirit, Father God, move in us and heal the brokenhearted, Father God.

Well, those moments, Father God, where we had to stay quiet.

Because of the pain that we've been carrying for so long, my Lord, I ask that you heal.

Thank you, Jesus.

For those who are in need of prayer, I'm gonna ask. for you guys to come on.

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