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On August 2nd 2022, I held his hand, the same way I did on our wedding day, when he took his last breath. Exactly one year later, I woke up paralysed, struck by FND.

This is not therapy. It is raw, sacred survival.
A sanctuary for shattered souls, where grief howls, rage prays, and healing is slow and shared.

No platitudes. No pressure to “overcome.”
Just real stories, real scars, and a voice whispering:
“Me too. This still hurts. Let us sit in the holy dark together.”

Welcome to a sanctuary for shattered souls:
Where grief is not fixed, it is honoured.
Where pain is not silenced, it is sung.

Here, we lament loudly, not with advice, but with Psalm-style howls.
We honour wounds that still throb…I am not “healed”; I am healing beside you.
We reclaim broken dates, August 2nd: death → paralysis → resurrection.

Vision & Purpose
This is not therapy, not coaching, not preaching. It is witness-bearing…
It is about:
Public storytelling as communal healing ❤️‍🩹
Amplifying voices of lament in a world that rushes grief 🗣️
Scars as sacred maps for others in darkness 🗺️
Solidarity through testimony, not solutions

Format: 15-30-mins weekly episodes; 3 segments: Story, Scripture, Solidarity

I will be starting solo not because my voice is enough, but because His voice in my suffering is the whole point…

I feel your pain

I feel your pain

Christianity

8 episodes

1: Introduction

Introducing the Purpose and Vision of I Feel Your Pain Podcast

2: Holy and Horror-When pain piles up

The 2nd of August

3: Womb Darkness: Miscarriages and a Fall of Grace

On what should be a day of pure celebration, we hold space for a more complex truth. This special episode, recorded on my daughter's 18th birthday, journeys back through the "womb darkness" of multiple miscarriages and the terrifying moment of her fall as a 4 and a half year old, a event that became an unexpected sign of grace. We will navigate the lonely landscape of pregnancy loss, discover ...

4: Amputated Dreams: The Marriage Crucible

What happens when "for better or worse, in sickness and in health" becomes your devastating reality? Today, we enter the fire of a marriage tested by catastrophic illness, countless surgeries, and the loss of a dreamed-for future. This is the story of how grief and unimaginable stress turned inward, creating a chasm between two people who loved God and each other deeply. We will hold onto the s...

5: The Sister-Shaped Hole: Sibling Loss and Shattered Identity

Sibling loss is often a disenfranchised grief, overlooked by a world that does not understand the unique bond. Today, we talk about the earth-shattering pain of losing a sister, the keeper of your secrets, your shared history, and a part of your own identity. This is the story of a sudden, tragic car accident that took my sister's life, leaving me to navigate a world that feels permanently alte...

6: Burying My Twin: Secondary Loss & Identity

What do you grieve when the person who dies is not your child, but felt like your own? This is the story of a sacred friendship, two boys raised like twins, and an eight-year battle with cancer that tested everything. We explore the concept of "compound grief", when losses pile up in the same year and the unique pain of "secondary loss," where you are mourning not just a person, but a shared f...

7: My Mother’s Mirror: Grieving the Man Who Reflected Her Soul

What happens when a person becomes a living, breathing link to a parent you have already lost?Today, we explore the profound and unique grief of losing my uncle, my mother's twin who was more than a beloved uncle. He was like a surrogate mother in a male form, my champion, and the person in whom I could still see my mother's spirit. For 22 years after her passing he was a mirror, reflecting my...

8: Milestones and Memory: Navigating Triggers

Holidays and celebrations can sharpen the pain of loss, turning days of joy into profound reminders of absence. In this episode, we move beyond birthdays to the complex terrain of cultural and family milestones. We will use the example of Mother's Day, a day that can be agonising for a mother who has lost a child, a child who has lost a mother, or a woman who longed to be a mother. (Story) To...

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